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My sweet lionhearted princess,

before the trip to paris I also had this kind of experience. It grew and grew and burned inside and exploded, felt even lava running through my veins instead of blood. Yeah, was like a volcano. Now I can't even tell concrete what went on, but it was mindblowing and changed a lot. Since the last waves of intense are gone I lost the ability to think clear and to write sensefull letters. Even talking is so hard and useless now. Thought we had it through. Seems like a dream or a hallucination right now, but nothing's ever clear behind the mirrors.
you describe it so much better, accurate and deep
hope you were able to save some of those fluids for you, keep this feeling of silence and beauty inside, if you can, don't forget it, don't forget how you become transpersonal coming out of your persona and feeling the om, the sound of life widing your microcosm to a giant eternal macrocosm
the pulse of light
what shall I say
there isn't even an “i”
so I do watch out of the train window and kniff the eyes to see the sun cross
u know, as I left on last friday the train hushed through fog
like the hedgehog in the fog
he's kinda psycho xD

before you wrote these words of peace and love to me I was about to tell you
you should kill me
wanted to pray for you killing me, darling, killing the beast you warmed with you breath
before it starts to destroy and set everything on fire
and you
as your eight card disarmed me. With a smile.
How endlessly pure, wise and beautiful you are
how sad for you, in the best case you got such dumbasses like us around you

dunno, maybe euphoria maybe zen
maybe it's the chiffre “любовь – Люди Богов Ведают”


there were, dear, there were
i'm not as fast and vital as you youngsters
also I were exhausted from all the conversations in which I took part in the last decades
and not to forget the sacral experience of force and fire
that really burned out
don't be sad about such things, dear, how could I ever forget you
answering might take a while from time to time, don't be upset with that
yeah, they are right, somehow
but it's also about the compagnions how do you feel the trip, for me a lot depends on exactly this point
people are very different in their frequencies and so one can feel the same city in totally different ways with different people

which music does play the piano you hear, dear?
Feel honoured to be seen by you as an old soldier who doesn't know words of love :,3
somehow it's true
learned to be everything, but not a girl
found in paris the watery womanly self – inside mother
haven't seen and felt it for so long
u know, fire and water are the same in their shapelessness
but a form can be given only to water by a glass, e.g.
it's like the good old Bruce Lee said – be water, my friend
so u can take any shape
but
it's somehow sad
only to feel a form through others, who give you a kind of shape, so many different shapes
but none is truly yours, originally yours
though u can be everything and everyone
mb that is why fire is appreciated a bit more by me, though i'm water and air, too
wasn't given the chance to find an own, personal shape by switching between mother and father
that's a reason I love you so much
for seeing and accepting the “dark side of the moon”
but it feels bad, too
cuz you are young
and your wise view might burden your young body way too much
afraid of damaging you
of destructional influence
don't wanna be destructive anymore without need
so have to change
saw the way, how
going the way
funny interpretation of the red coulour – u shall not pass, good guy, that's the last warning, the last sign for ya pilgrim, make one more step and u fall
like красный свет – дороги нет xD
no, not being a badass
being a dragonish :bip: with huge feeling of responsibility and always too foolish and kind while trying to erase useless and dangerous burning out for all my beloved kiddies
somehow simple folks stayed the same since the creation of the multiverses
addicted to switch “love” and “war”
oh, there's an insane dragon, why not try killing him, can sell the teeth, the skin, everything
it's not about trying to steal the treasures he is do cares for
folks just like souvenirs and amuletts
that's why “to save” is harder than “to destroy”
destruction can be helpful and good, too
when the fundament of a castle is eaten by decay, e.g.
but I do drift away

there's a wonderful church in paris
the white sacre-coeur
on the highest place in da city
there is very enlightened and sacred energy still flowing
and the simple emblem is wonderful, too
a burning heart strangled by thorns
not burning out or down, but as the door to the sacral fire
like the rose on cross, saved by the thorns
cross as the symbol of the wheel of life, the holy synthese of energies
and
we listened to a majestic organ
at first they played Bach <3
and
I know now, what's so fine about wine
it's different and sortful
and tastes fine with meal
if it's not too sweet
but we both like the sweeter ones better
so went to Versaille with stuff for picknick and enjoyed there a kind of port wine
“they send us alcohol, cuz they love us”

I think you would like maman
for she is really an adult
and a lion, just like you)
but also very femine and forceful, and a lover of culture
she suggested such a thing – in the summer, when there are white nights in st.petersburg we plan to go there and visit a part of family and enjoying the snobbish culture (mom studied there)
if you can manage to arrange it, you can come over for a weekend, she said and we three could enjoy together. I know, weekend isn't that much, but there's an odysee through family waiting, too
guess it wouldn't fit for me afterwards visiting moscow, the harsh witch
plan to go afterwards to grandparents for a while
but if you like and your adults will let you, that might be an opportunity to meet
u'd stay than with us for the time

yep, there are dead poets on stars
or inside

but the clue for being brilliant and ingenious is to stop the personal evolution
better to say – the evolution of personality
instead the evolution of mind progresses
the ability to feel deeply and suffer truly makes a person ingenious
but that's a way of destruction, too =_=
never becoming mature and bloom crystal clear, stying the slave
but fortunatly there is another way, too
becoming the master
and develop your being on every existential level, reaching the mastership not only in jumping in abyss :,D
have a good example from a fine guy, whose blog I read for a long time now, he's delicious
they had a meeting with friends and read poems out, too
and there he made the difference between immature and mature poets
he said: we read lyrics and Brodsky.
And laughed for the sake of the poor lost souls, who where indulging their whole creation long
cuz they liked beeing weak
don't become a pathetic poet like that small heroin alice
there's no need in it
that's not worth it

by the way, have I posted to your earlier themes the explanation of moscow my that fine guy in your earlier themes?

Be proud of me, sugar, your childish friend, who's as old as the universe finally wrote an answer
\0/

кусь! <3

Chatta_Gris wrote:бесполезно =3=
это замкнутый круг

хД
двадцатьоднёрка - миру мир
зеро - сводящий концы с концами везде. где можно и где низя.
а почему?
почто дурак!
и балует >__>
но ниважно

наиудачнейшего дня, dearest dear
<3

Тема: йотированный Ѣ - невыражевываемость, она такая
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